so my pregnancy is coming to an end.
blood testing has shown that my pregnancy count is dropping. i have been bleeding and cramping, but it stops frequently. so my doctor gave me choices. i ended up deciding on taking a drug called misoprostol (aka: cytotec) to help my cramping and contractions along.
i haven't yet inserted the misoprostol. it hurts too much to think this is how my connection to my baby ends. the pain and heartbreak of it all has been horrible. i know i can't continue to carry the baby (nor do i want to) but i seem to find myself scared and almost unwilling to end it all.