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 my_empty_cradle - (plain_life0404)
02:29am 09/01/2008
plain_life0404 posting in pregnancy loss

So I went to my very first session.  It was quite interesting.  I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I just needed answers.  Not even 5 mins into the session, I started balling.  I thought I had a control over my emotions, since I hadn't cried for weeks.  Went on about my mulitple losses.  Which to my attention, I had not yet grieved completely with my first miscarriage.  There's a lot of emotions at float.  I have somewhat of an idea of what will come, but part of me doesn't really want to except the loss of my 2nd miscarriage.  I think its because I have a lot of anger towards GOD.  Until I can come to terms with God, I might be able to move on.  I just don't want too!  I want to stay anger at HIM.  
After my session, I was actually relief.  It felt good to talk about it out loud and cry.  Its good to CRY. 

location: home sweet home
mood: okayokay
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12:51pm 09/01/2008 (UTC)
I agree with you. I does feel good to cry and just get it out. I had so much anger towards God also after my second loss. I just couldn't understand why I wasn't being allowed to have a child with my husband who loved me and could be the perfect parent and father with me. while I cold have children with a man who abused me and tortured me for 10 years.
I am glad you are able to have someone to talk to about all this. I should have gotten therapy but just couldn't afford it.
picword: forever missed
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09:14am 18/01/2008 (UTC)
thank you
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11:01pm 12/01/2008 (UTC)
it took me awhile to realize i hadn't grieved for my second loss. once i gave in and let the crying and hurt out it got a little better.
i hope your sessions will help you. i hope you don't lose your faith in God. take care.
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09:13am 18/01/2008 (UTC)
the sessions are bringing a lot of things I thought of but not really thought about it indepth. Actually thinking about it, it brings more hurt and sadness. So I suppose its helping a little. I hope you're well.
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